While Jeff Bezos’ wife, Lauren Sanchez, may be relishing having achieved a major parenting landmark, it also seems to have left her with a burdened heart. The renowned philanthropist recently took to social media to pen a heartfelt message about the latest development in her life,

Lauren Sánchez Bezos is feeling all the feels as she officially sent her 19-year-old son, Evan Whitesell, off to college, a milestone that left her both proud and heartbroken. On Monday, the journalist and helicopter pilot shared a touching photo of Evan in his new dorm, carefully assembling furniture for his room at the University of Miami.

Sánchez noted that she was “proud, heartbroken” and “grateful,” adding a heart emoji. The mother of three played David Bowie’s “Changes” in the background. Evan is attending the University of Miami, where he plans to study business.